Waiting for the Promised Land...

Ya'll -

There is so much that I want to say. But it's so much, I feel overwhelmed trying to get it down in a concise, coherent way. Just know that I had a dream 8 months ago that showed me waiting, waiting, waiting, waiting, for my BF to acknowledge me and our relationship - i.e. have his words line up with his actions re me. God has shown me so much (e.g. a calendar with our wedding date circled + me actually finding a calendar in his house with that month circled and labeled "Cancun"). But right now, NOTHING in the natural realm is matching up with the Promised Land. I'm still waiting... *sigh*

Anyway, the below is one of my late night poetic happenings (last night to be exact). Enjoy and keep in mind that I'm an artist and I'm sensitive about my....

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"Perspective"


Took a look over my shoulder today /

Realized I gave you something... /

a while back. /

Well, not just to you /

Hindsight shows I've /

always given 100% of myself/

to what I've truly wanted/

but you? /

you, sir, are the only /

"hominidae, homo sapien" /

[male] /

who I let indulge in my unconditional devotion /

...that unabridged, unmanipulated /

uncompromising devotion. /


No. Regrets. /


But now it's a do or don't situation /

a quit it or embrace it kinda situation /

a forget about it or forge new life with it situation /

because we're on the verge of... /

maybe even sick of... /

Perhaps we've already begun the process of /

severing the ties that bind /

because when I turn my head to /

look forward /

it appears you're trying to let me go /

at a time where I want nothing less/

than to maintain a firm hold /

I get so confused at times... /

What can one say of a man who
will give a girl anything she asks.../

everything she asks... /

except what her heart delights in the most... /

Quality. /

Time. /

*sigh*



But I'll never know for sure /

because you keep pressing Ignore /

on the opportunities to /

converse and discuss (the ob-vee...) us /

Thought if I gave you space/

You'd come to the table /

face-to-face /

But again....hindsight reminds me that...

*sigh*


I grow weary /

in waiting... /

waiting for you to find the right time /

waiting for you to find the right words /

To just tell me what you want. In Life. From Me. /

I just need to hear you say it... /

Because unlike hindsight, /

the perspective I currently see will remain inherently skewed /

Until and unless *you* give me 20/20. by WifeofUriah (c) 2009